Story Behind the Song
This song is about when I was forced to stay at a group home for six months. I spent months working on Remove All Memories. Everytime I woke up from a nightmare of being trapped in some facility, I'd write more and more. Brooklawn tore a wound in me that was never there before, so to the inhabitants of it ,f*** you, enjoy the song.
Lyrics
Clenching my teeth, fists pounding concrete,
trapped in this shithole, this place I'm sick of knowing,
I wake up from these nightmares in cold sweat, this place I see,
fuck these memories, take them away from this fresh air that I breathe.
I'm so fucking tired of re-living this time, can't even find peace in my sleep as I dream about that shit-stained piss-ridden slam, lock, jingle, walk, facility of insanity, leave me be!
You built it all up to tempt me, to get me to flee, but fuck you I stayed, watching civilians 50 feet away. Went through each pointless stage, designed to keep chaos away, in your prison of mind that funds from others evily-aligned, to hold me inside, watching me through a single eye, I left and gathered all the sanity that was once mine,
I never looked back, took what was left and drove home, but the evil tracked me down, stuck in my head it won't let go!!
Remove all memories from my brain,
Give me back the life I spent in pain,
sent in to get rid of nothing,
stuck inside a wall I cannot break.
Determined to live out my life,
I held back every urge to fight,
focused on the pictures around me,
knowing I still had what meant to me.
I wait around all day and anticipate,
Whether I'll be seeing my shrink so he can evaluate all my good behaviour that was so unexpected, even though I never caused trouble before I'd been selected.
Fuck that prick telling me that I'm sick so he can keep me coming back to talk about bullshit. Every day I sit and wait, in the filthy hands of fate, staring at a fucking wall, questioning if I've a life at all. Tears run down my bloodshot eyes as I feel my body die, I try to put my mind in the present but it gets stuck in depression and can't get by.
You think you can control me when the mask of your subject is all that you see,
I played your game and left legally but I never changed a god damn thing!!
You tell me you did all you could, as if I did something wrong, something that warranted this, stuck in this shit I won't miss, all you had to do was leave me the fuck alone, let me stay at home but the government never fails to impress me, trapped in the crowded light of stupidity. Someday you'll feel all the pain and I'll be laughing in your face for all the corruption you've embraced!!
Remove all memories from my brain,
Give me back the life I spent in pain,
Sent in to get rid of nothing,
Stuck inside a wall I cannot break.
Determined to live out my life,
I held back every urge to fight,
Focused on the pictures around me,
Knowing I still had what meant to me.
I watched you all pray to your god every night and then beat yourselves up phsyically and mentally, you made me want to throw up and the fact that I was here to be classified as one of you insulted everything I am, now I do all I can, to erase what's been nailed to my head, like everything that you said, I almost wish I were dead but instead I go on with my life that has been gutted and slashed with your feculent knife.
You think you can control me when the mask of your subject is all that you see, I played your game and left legally but I never changed a god damn thing!!
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