"Anna's Song" genre: Rock
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	I wrote & recorded this after being walked out on early June 2003. mikejacobs74@hotmail.com
	Label: Self Credits: Written, produced, performed, and recorded by Michael D. Jacobs June 2003
	Story Behind the Song I started writing the coneptual lyrics for this while she was on her way to the car after dumping me. She was so angry, and had no reasons why. The next day, I laid down a few guitar riffs and then that night from 10pm through 4am, the entire song was rewritten, rearranged, and recorded. I told her when she left that I loved her, that I would miss her, and thanked her for what time she gave me. After the way she acted when I told her that, it made me feel that what I thought was real was actually not. The self doubt line reflects that. The storm in the beginning and the line about "like a violent storm in human form" stems from our common love for storms, and how she swept in like one and took what's left away, like natures unforgiving and unremorseful self. We used to lie in bed and watch storms roll in. The line of "the smiling face of all I'll never be" comes from the things we spoke of. How she said I would make a great father, husband, etc. Now I do not get to be those things with her gone. Our last two weeks together she alienated me to the point that I knew what was coming, hence the "I can't believe you took so long.... I lost you before you were gone" line. Her honesty and bluntness were endearing qualities that I loved that never seemed to stay the course. It's all pretty much a first take. I did it all with Ibanez guitars, a Digitech RP-7 effects processor, a Casio keyboard, some Cakewalk software, my PC, and a broken heart. It's my way of letting her know how it felt to lose her in the way she made it happen. The whole song was full of references and sometimes direct quotes to each other. It's just too bad sometimes that what seems to feel with all your heart to be love turns out to be nothing more than an exercise in futility. She came into my life when I had all but lost hope, proved herself to be more than I had ever hoped or imagined, then broke my heart like no one ever had. I gues for the most part "Anna's Song" was the goodbye I never got to say. I gave her the first copy of the song, and several have made it to varios friends who have taken it to local radio stations & etc. I have had several comments on the song, but never a word back from her. For what it's worth, I loved her with all my heart. I miss her every night and day. It's been weeks since she left and I recorded this, and the pain still is just as hurtful as when she left. She is still around, and it kills me to hear mention of her. To see her. I feel like a part of me dies eveytime. "You'll never know what I'm going through while heaven sits outside my view" stems from that. It's so much easier to run into an ex when you are the one who did all the leaving I guess. I loved her. I miss her. The hardest thing to have dealt with, with the way she left and all, was the feeling that I didn't matter anyway. Nothing I did mattered. Nothing I felt mattered. I had a sense that I finally belonged. That feeling of forever was finally in my life, and from the way she spoke and acted there was no doubt in anyone's mind. I just wished I had mattered anyway. Lyrics You. You came to me at my lowest point, the darkest before the dawn. You. You sheltered me. I finally had somewhere I could belong. The warmness of your loving touch and all the things I miss so much have gone away. You acted like you wanted me. You made me feel you needed me. None of it mattered anyway. Chorus: All the tears I've cried for you, so much of me has died for you since you took my heart & hope away. I tried for you. I stood by you. I felt so much inside for you, and none of it mattered anyway. Self doubt consumes me. I'm not strong enough to do it all again. The fear is feeding me. It tells me it'll always be this way. In all the years I've looked for you, you said you've looked for me too. If that were true, then why couldn't you stay? I can't believe you took so long. I lost you before you were gone, and now it doesn't matter anyway. Chorus The past is haunting me. I feel your presence in almost everything. The future is mocking me, the smiling face of all I'll never be. Like a violent storm in human form you swept in and took what's left away. You weren't the same as you were before and I don't matter anymore. Did I ever matter anyway? Chorus I don't know what else to do. I can't cry anymore for you. Love just wasn't enough for you to stay. You'll never know what I'm going through while heaven sits outside my view. I wish that I had mattered anyway. I wish that I had mattered anyway. I wish that I had mattered anyway.

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