Story Behind the Song
I met George at a Car Wash a few years ago when he asked me for money to buy him some alcohol. We ended up having dinner and becoming friends. He died in October, 2001, and I happened to write this about a month before, the last time I saw him.
Lyrics
George
He’s just sittin’ there on his bed goin’
through his papers, his bills
Needin’ to get some pills, get his
prescriptions filled.
I don’t know how many there are, or what
they’re all from,
But my ears are open as the beat of his
mouth drum
Tells me the tales, creeps to the jails of
my understanding,
Sets them free, pours into me all the
sickness and misery
Untouched by the reaches of Medicaid. It’s
like watching an ant parade
Pass in front of my slow motion camera eyes,
all scurrying in struggled steps
While my strong, alpha male body can only
observe with helpless hands.
He askes me to read the numbers, find the
facts his cataracts
Are unable to reach. And the papers pass
‘cross the hall,
Fall on clean fingers now stained with their
ink.
All my thoughts sink and scatter to
footsteps I have raced,
Traced all around this city, trying to taste
every hasty decision
I have yet to make.
“This won’t take too long,” he says,
Eyes turn red with embarrassment, sitting in
a dingy corner of a beaten down house,
Hot and pounding the searing un-conditioned
air
Falling with droplets of sweat on a beating
conscience.
So I sit there as he waits expectantly,
smiles approval at the information I have
confirmed.
The hurry bug squirms out my ear,
Fears and concerns spurned for the pleasure
of this moment,
This service to a 70-year old man with puffy
fingers and scarred legs on a shriveled body.
Hospital stories turn to ancient histories
of jazz clubs and colorful towns.
Moonlight drowns the clock through the
window.
I shift on the faltering cushion supporting
me
Breathing stale, tobacco-laden air like it
was the first giggle of springtime,
Finding beauty in his wrinkle surrounded
sight,
Catching the faint gleams of hope and
friendship
Lost in years of wanderings through self-
pleasured quests and wasted treasure
chests.
Is this me or him I am thinking about?
A moment of doubt as I walk out the door,
Re-enter the whirlpool rush of western
culture,
Breathe the fumes of this convolution
cavalcade,
Life charading in frightened forms,
desperate storms of urgency.
I’m thinking of him tapping his knee,
Curly gray hair winking back at me,
Leaning silently till a dirty pillow kisses
his tired face,
Time’s erased,
And George takes his place.
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