Story Behind the Song
This song started as two songs, the first written during the relationship, and the second written two months after breaking up with my fiance. The main feelings that drive this song are the fear, apathy, and self-delusion that you get from those times when you decide it hurts too much to feel, but then you realize you don't know how you feel when you want to.
Lyrics
My eyes: the windows to my soul. I locked the latch long time ago. We clicked. The flicking sound. You found a way inside this time around. Your words I heard as clicking of your heels on concrete floors. I feel your footsteps pounding. Find your way to my heart’s cobwebbed doorway.
It smells like flesh and old cigarettes when you reach my insides, and I’m scared ‘cause you’re here. What can I say? Can you see it when I’m kissing you?
I see beauty in your eyes. I see truth behind your eyes. I see something in your eyes that sees something in me.
The sounds reverberate inside as you make camp without a guide. My dear, beware, lest you get lost inside Heart’s Forest where you’ve been tossed. Hate and Fear now trees of growth. Now you’ve made camp and cut down both. But when Robin comes, his mischief made, will you go run, or will you stay and play.
Outside, feeling the breeze, but inside it’s killing me. So I’ll smile and fool them all if I can. Reprise the unending song of my life. It’s taking too long, so I’ll try to forget this song again.
Tell me this ain’t true. I’m not missing you. I’d say this can’t be, but it seems too much like me.
I don’t know if I miss you, and I don’t know if I’d want to. I don’t know, but I think so.
I think it’s true.
Well, I’m scared. I sure thought I was prepared to give you away and that I’ve faired well now that you’re gone. I’ll bear the burden of guilt that you dared to lay on me, and I cared enough to see it done.
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