Story Behind the Song
I was depressed when I wrote this song. I forget what about, but chances are it had something to do with a girl. :-)
Lyrics
Gotta win this time, be the first in line, keep my pride intact, keep my emotions back
And stay in line, keep my self control this time, in these thoughts I hold, the heart that you stoned
(chorus) I take my time, I take my life and analyze each though
I fight for hope, i fight for love, each time I sought for you
Reach through this blind, closed on my life, fill this void inside, God knows I've tried
Hold up my heart, before it sinks too far, tell me I'm someone, cause I need the support
(chorus) I hate myself, I hate my life, sometimes I hate it all inside, I reach my hand out to the light, why won't this hurt just die?
I'll find a way to make this right, something is breaking out of my mind, can't keep these feelings in this time, now I see you in my eyes
(chorus #2) I'll fade away, I'll fade away, cause I can't breathe and I can't see
I'll fade away, I'll fade away
(chorus) I wish I'd say what I feel inside, this hurts me everyday, I know I'm heading back again, into this lonely phase
I hate the world the way I am, my thoughts begins to fade, tell me why I was made this way, now I can never be alive
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