Lyrics
Verse 1:
Dad broke out on mom, she did tha best that she could/
21with a young son growin’ up in tha hood/
How could she keep her child doin’ some good/
No man ta hold muh hand, I did what any youth would/
Whatever I wanted, she never knew tha truth/
I was runnin’ with big boys, learnin’ shit in muh youth/
Fuck 1,2,3 I was countin’ nothin’ but 20’s/
20 dollar billz and 20 sacks of weed/
Mom worked all day and grandma was too old ta play/
I found friends round tha hood with who ta spend muh day/
Ya said it’s muh fault for livin’ this life/
But what should I do, sit at home and just cry/
Feel sorry for muhself, and tha way muh life is/
Or go out with muh friends and learn tha street biz/
We all had no dad, only father’s I had/
Nothin’ but laughs and some cats I knew had muh back/
So don’t start ta judge til ya hear from muh side/
I may be a badass but at least I ain’t dyin’/
Chorus(x2):
Apologize for all tha pain that I’ve caused/
But try dealin’ with all tha family I’ve lost/
Try bein’ tha one that everybody labels a bastard/
Then see if ya don’t become a Natural Disaster/
Verse 2:
I’m callin’ ya name in my sleep, I wake in a cold sweat/
You’re constantly hauntin’ my dreams, tears make my eyes wet/
Why did ya leave me in tha cold, and let me stumble through/
My path is fadin’ and old, I can’t make it without you/
I blame myself for you leavin’, never talked near tha end/
Now my heart is bleedin’ with the absence of my best friend/
I wonder if ya would be proud? Would ya smile about all tha good?/
Or would ya scold me for all tha bad shit I did in tha hood/
My mentality is my undoing, lost all sense when ya flew away/
When I lay down I wonder why ya couldn’t stay/
Will ya keep me right? Will ya whisper in my ear?/
Can ya light tha path? Can ya make tha mysteries clear?/
But I wake up and I wipe tha sweat from my head/
I wish that I could see ya, I wish that I were dead/
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