Story Behind the Song
It was time to write something deeper, lyrics, music, mental. Just a peek inside some of the unpleasant times.
Lyrics
Pain my drug of choice, its in my voice
I want to scream it until I'm totally hoarse
Open my lips, but I hear no sound, look down
my words spilled over the ground
Unloved, unheard, nobody left
Misunderstood so I talk to myself
Don't mind the stares, it's the thoughts that faze me
I'm close to the edge and half crazy
Sleep, the escape i choose
no matter what I dream, if I live, i don't lose
But dreams are what I'm hoping on
I wake up, open my eyes, my dream is gone
Some may call me a fool, I agree
I can't afford common sense, and that's free
forever, I'm searching for the treasure, getting scarred
Be better off following God.
If you only knew, the pressure and stress
I constantly put myself through
Depression, plays like a show, I got a front row ticket
It's a habit of mine, I gotta kick it.
Come with me, I'll take you on a ride
you'll soon see, all that's deep inside....yourself
Bang, but that ain't the sound of a kamikaze pilot.
I'm crazy, but I'm not suicidal
I'm trying to make it out the darkness
See, trouble hits hardest when it hits where your heart is.
Beneath all clothes, all looks
All appearances, beats, rhymes, and hooks.
So when you see me I may give you a smile.
But don't let it fool you child.
Drama lies beneath, I'm the silent type
to cats I'm kool, to women I'm sweet.
While I'm checking' 'em, head to feet
and probably have a thought or two about between the sheets.
Now, you can judge, but you can't be a hypocrite
If you got issues, yo you can't say sh*
Build up, build up, build up, drain
Uh, and then you feel the pain.
Inside the classic, ...
But that ain't all
Belly swollen with pride, now I'm waiting to fall
Although, i know this, I try to stay humble
still I feel my spirit crumble.
Looks are deceiving, you see me achieving
But you never see my life force bleeding.
Split my mind and soul,into two different persons,
then I metamorph to the worse one.
And I can't hold back, I scratch
Four walls but I can't find one crack
walking up the down escalator
My prize, grows fainter, fainter
Frustration, humiliation
I'm impatient cause time ain't waiting
Sustained by the grace of the uncreated
and prayers of those dedicated
Complacency is filling me, without no sense of urgency
I'm given to the spirit of the wind until I'm dust.
Tossing me and turning me, I learn these principalities
would like to keep a hold on me until my soul is crushed.
He offered me eternity, I said no i don't want to be
My lips never parted, but my actions spoke clear.
And even in His jealousy, I know that He's protecting me
What happens when I'm made to see the power of His fear.
Inside the classic......
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