Story Behind the Song
This song is about the struggle of being different. Constant harrassment and teasing lead this teenager into a hateful, depressed rage, which the teenager turns into a desire to harm the perpetrator of these acts. The main individual responsible for the torment of this child is also the child's role model, and is to be his first victim. I used to associate with Gothic culture and this is an exaggeration of the feelings of pain that I felt.
Lyrics
Everyday of my life I was picked on.
People telling me I'm the devil's son, death is fun.
I feel like a lamb with a broken leg
The wolves, ready to prey, since the second grade.
I've been beaten up just for walking by
At night I cry, I ask god why.
What did I do to deserve this?
I'm in peril, distress, a bloody mess.
Can you help me out my shirt stained red.
Some days I'm better off dead, no words said.
But I promised to pay you back for everything
And let you feel my pain, my suffering.
I guess because I wear black, I must be bad.
People don't understand why I'm so sad, mad, depressed.
Just one day I'd like to go out with no stress.
Please just let me go about my business.
I still don't know the meaning
Of all the parent teacher meetings.
Too many parent teacher meetings.
Open up that door.
See the surprises waiting for you, what's in store.
Every time I hear your name I slam my head.
Meeting you was my only regret.
I wrapped it up in a brown paper bag and a bow.
And since the second grade I've known the address to your home.
I know when your parents are working and when you're alone.
I even know the number to your phone, you should've known
That your world would be crumbling.
Stumbling down the stairway to heaven, getting what you're given.
I'm seventeen and already murder driven, a dark rollar unforgiven,
Hidden from the world because it's so cruel.
I hate the people I come in contact with at school
Because they hate me. They hate me because I'm different.
So reading and thinking is how my time is spent.
Over and over and over this in my head.
I think about it every night before I go to bed.
You've been my nightmare ever since I was a kid.
Never going to regret what I did,
what I'm going to do.
I hate you and your whole high school crew.
Don't worry. You're not the only one I sent this to.
Open up that door.
See the surprises waiting for you, what's in store.
Every time I hear your name I slam my head.
Meeting you was my only regret.
Do you want to know the truth?
I've always looked up to you.
Now I'm number one.
I left the whole crowd stunned.
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