Story Behind the Song
I was out of a relationship, and I wanted her back desperately. I considered suicide, but instead I wrote this song to show her the way that I felt.
Lyrics
(Chorus)
These crimson tears that fall from my wrists,
As I think of all the days that I will miss,
I'm not here anymore, but my heart goes on,
I was so weak, when I was supposed to be strong,
Now, I'm gone, turn another page,
'Cause my soul was the killing rage,
But this is the way that it has to be,
And you can live your life, like you never even knew me.
I ask myself, do I think too much?
Then I answer yes, because I know I've lost touch,
With life, and I know now I can't make things right,
That's why I'm contemplating using this knife,
To cut myself, just to watch myself bleed,
I cry everytime, from all that I've seen,
'Cause I've been hit and kick and stabbed from all the pain I have,
You ask me why I'm saying things bad,
My life doesn't need to live like this,
What the f--- did I do wrong to do deserve this,
I never was able to do things I had to,
Now I'm 23 years young, and my mind's still screwed,
Been in love twice, and once was real nice,
And there's little from that, and I can't suffice,
'Cause when I leave this world, you won't miss me at all,
And you'll see my tears fall when I'm gone.
(Chorus)
Now, I'm lying on the floor, strugglin' for every breath,
I know I only have a half hour left,
But as I try to relax, I think back,
When I was so simple, yet so compact,
I remember my friend Joe, it was almost 20 years ago,
We were so close, yet we had to be brothers, though,
It seemed to change when I moved away,
I saw him again in college, we were the same way,
Sometimes, I wish people would never change,
It would make me so much happier, but now I feel caged,
'Cause anyone can jump down your throat, snap you in two,
Everybody did this to me, is no one true?
No one ever brought me up when I was down,
Sits on my mind, like one black cloud,
'Cause when I leave this world, you won't miss me at all,
And you'll see my tears fall when I'm gone.
(Chorus)
It's clear as crystal, rushing like a missle,
And the heavens are accepting my real life dismissal,
'Cause I'm at the brink of life and death,
And now that I figured out what all of my life meant,
It didn't occur to me, that there was someone out there,
It was the love of my life, and she still cares,
We were so different, man, how could she stand me,
'Cause I treated her right, and I healed everything,
Does she still have a chance to heal me,
To bandage up my wrists, and to stop them from bleeding,
A slim chance, 'cause it won't be easy,
'Cause I used the knife to cut my arms vertically,
If my life can be saved, it won't be a cinch,
And if I had my way, I want one last wish,
When I leave this world, I want you to miss me,
But the tears have left me, and now I'm gone.
(Chorus 2x then fade)
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