"(The Pearl I Threw Away)" genre: Leftfield
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	This song was written after a breakup with a true love. Lacking the sappiness of your typical love song, this one's like waking up to a hangover, or coming down from an awesome but temporary high. Love is a drug. Like Rollins said, "I'll come at you like an affliction. And I'll leave you like an addiction."
	CD: Save Me | Kill Me   Label: BoomBox Worldwide
	Story Behind the Song I lay there on the couch staring out the window, and I just couldn't believe I was me; like I had a life outside of this body, and that my existence here was something through which I unwittingly lived vicariously. And yet I breathed, and I coughed, and the sorrow I felt were unreal as well, but they affected me as if I were some movie goer, deeply affected by the movie, but somehow remaining detached. But I cried. I stared at the floor, at the toilet in the hotel room, as I sat on the floor propped against the wall. Almost in the same instant, I was likewise all alone as a child in my room in Laureleaf, crying and seeking strength in the universe. Tears fell. And they were unreal to me. For I never cried. But I loved this girl. She was my daughter, friend, lover, wife, and mother all fucking rolled in one. I held her and kissed her forehead. And held her tight with both arms thinking that my embrace would shield us from all danger and corruption. And she held tight believing the same thing. We were a two-person family whose nucleus was the concept of 'us'. "I will let you go, and it hurts me, but I know that it will be for our good. But, at the same time, it is my duty to serve as the support for our relationship just as you did when I waveredI think back to the times we would be outside, walking through cities with drinks in our hands, basking in the sun and the great joy we felt to be together right there, right then. And the movies we watched, the hot dogs we ate, and the simple joy of making you happy, being together." My eyes and cheeks felt heavy with sadness. And I tried to hold my breath as I talked. I sat on the bed, looking out at the great big buildings, and glorious lights of New York City, sensing opportunity and the beginning of everything in this city. Just knowing it would happen. "KK, look at that. So beautiful. There will be a day when I accomplish my dreams. And I want to share my happiness with you." Lyrics Such a simple world if you think of it as a pearl and there's nothing left to burn and there's nothing left to yearn for it seemed like yesterday there was a morning scattered ray it blows my mind i felt inside out upside down free just me and my woman now we're lying on the floor and what can be has been before it seemed like saturday there was a picture washed away i close my eyes and breathe inside out upside down I had a vision... so sorry now can't speak cause i can't think for myself so sorry now there are times when i lose myself save me, my love swear i'll love you for the rest of my life don't bring me down i can't seem to rest my mind compromise.. indifference... but i have culture, fashion, and god

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